What did I learn today? Lessons on the Journey to Unconditional Self Love

  Affirmation: I honor the footsteps that came before me, and I plant seeds of dignity, joy, and legacy with every step I take. Brasilia held me in a way I did not expect. I arrived as part of the me too Global Network delegation, invited to join the March for Reparations and Good Living in Brazil and Beyond. In the days leading up to the march, the city pulsed with gatherings, workshops, and meetings—spaces alive with pride, love, and purpose. Every conversation carried weight, every activity stitched together a fabric of solidarity. I felt myself being called higher. To pay attention not only to how I show up in the NiNa program, but how I show up in the world. There were women who who had been advocating for dignity and equal rights long before I was even imagined, our ancestors. Their footsteps laid the path I now walk. And with that realization came a quiet accountability: how I live my life must honor them. This is my time to plant seeds, to tend the garden left for me. Brazi...

Affirmation:  I honor my effort, even when it feels imperfect. Every stumble is a step toward strength, every misstep a lesson in resilience. I prepare with intention, I present with courage, and I forgive myself with grace. I am growing, I am learning, and I am enough  Life has a way of throwing us into moments we think we’re ready for—until we’re standing there, heart racing, words tangled, wishing we could disappear. Today was one of those moments for me. I had a presentation to give. I knew about it, I prepared for it, but when the time came… I froze. I was nervous, I mumbled, I stumbled through my slides. Honestly, I was just bad. And it hurt, because being chosen to present meant something to me. It felt like an opportunity, and I wanted to rise to it. Instead, I wanted to cry. But here’s the thing: I didn’t run. I pulled myself together, faced the music, and let the experience humble me. That’s the part I’m holding onto. From this day forward, I’m making a vow—not just ...

 Affirmation: I release the cages I have built around myself. I welcome support, connection, and abundance into my life. I choose freedom over fear, expansion over limitation, and love over self-abandonment. Each day, I open the gates wider and step into the fullness of who I am I was reading Briana Wiest, one of my favorite truth tellers, I had to pause after reading this “Some of us build our own cages and live within them because we think it keeps us safe.” Safe. That word echoed. And I immediately asked myself: what cages have I built? What stories do I keep telling myself — and others — that convince me it’s safer to stay locked inside than to step out into freedom? Fear, uncertainty, ignorance, inherited beliefs… they all become bricks in the walls of our self-made prisons. It was humbling, almost jarring, to look into the mirror of Self and realize: the prisons we build are often harder to leave than the ones imposed on us. Bob Marley said it best: “None but ourselves can fr...

  Affirmation :I stay with myself. I breathe. I feel. I return If I’m being honest—and I try to be, especially with myself—my coping mechanism is scrolling the internet and isolating. There it is. Named. Not judged, just seen. Coping mechanisms are curious things. They’re meant to help us shift our attention, to soften the edges of what feels too sharp in the moment. And sometimes, they do just that. They offer a pause, a breath, a buffer. But the trouble begins when the pause becomes a pattern. When the buffer becomes a barrier. When the thing we’re avoiding—grief, fear, uncertainty, even joy—gets buried beneath the scroll, the snack, the spreadsheet, the sweat, the silence. We all have our go-tos. Work. Exercise. Food. Shopping. Sex. Relationships. Binge-watching. The list is long and familiar. The question isn’t whether we cope. It’s how. And whether the how is helping us return to ourselves—or pulling us further away. For me, the internet offers a kind of numbing hum. A place w...

Affirmation: I give myself permission to grow, even when it’s uncomfortable. I trust the process, honor my pace, and welcome curiosity as my guide. I am allowed to begin again.    Are we willing to give ourselves permission to do a new thing? Not the kind of permission that comes with guarantees or applause. But the quiet, trembling kind. The kind that whispers, “go ahead and do it,” even when the outcome is uncertain. The kind that invites curiosity, even when clarity hasn’t arrived. To give ourselves permission, we must first look at what we’re holding on to. What beliefs have become our safety nets, our shields, our stories? Maybe it’s the belief that we must always be seen to be worthy. Maybe it’s the belief that keeping the peace is more important than speaking our truth. Maybe it’s the belief that mistakes are failures, not teachers. I want to give myself permission to let go of needing to be seen. To let go of the role of peacekeeper when peace costs my presence. To mak...

Affirmation: I honor the ache and the effort. I trust the timing. I release what is not mine to carry. What is for me will not pass me by—and I meet it with grace, not grasping. Have you ever wanted something so deeply it felt like your whole being was leaning into it? Like you could taste it, touch it, see it solving everything that felt heavy and uncertain? I had that moment today. This consultancy job—I wanted it with all my heart. In my mind, it was the answer to the financial strain I’ve been carrying, the quiet erosion of confidence I hadn’t even realized had taken root. It would pay off debts, restore some ease, remind me of who I am when I’m standing tall. And yet, everywhere I turned, there were blocks. First the references. Then the health insurance. Then another thing. And another. Today, the final delay came—the insurance was taking longer than expected, and time was running out. And something shifted. In the past, I would’ve gone straight into solution mode. Who has time t...

Affirmation: I learn, I share, I rise—with my sisters, for my sisters.  I was invited to join the Global Me Too Movement in crafting a manifesto for Latin America and the Caribbean—one that centers survivors, demands justice, and imagines healing as both personal and political. We gathered in a circle of fierce tenderness, where truth was spoken, held, and honored. To be part of this global moment—as the quiet one, the motif-maker, the dreamer of Nina-sized visions—was nothing short of miraculous. I showed up real, and real met me back. The pride and gratitude I felt were unmatched. It’s still sinking in. But what moved me most was the camaraderie. The way we laughed, cried, translated across languages and lived experiences. I learned so much about Latin America’s passionate feminist principles—rooted in resistance, joy, and unwavering solidarity. These women, these grassroots organizations, continue to show up for their sisters with grit and grace, demanding justice and building s...

Affirmation:   I honor the storm and the stillness. I choose presence over resistance, and trust the pivot. I have been in Mexico for the past few days. It has been eye-opening. Not just for the beauty of the place, but for the depth of the gathering. I’m here among comrades of the cause—women who speak the same language of justice, healing, and fierce love. The room is full of those working to end gender-based and sexual violence, to support migrant women, girls in State care, and to dismantle inequality in all its forms . There’s something sacred about being in a space where your truth doesn’t need translation. We’ve spent days exchanging ideas, building trust, and practicing self-care—which, let’s be honest, is the heartbeat of this movement. Without it, we burn out. With it, we rise. Today, we were meant to convene on the beach. A meeting with the ocean as witness. But as we got ready, the storm came—thunder, lightning, the whole dramatic symphony. Talk about a pivot? We had no...

Affirmation:  Obedience to the Most High's guidance is a form of trust Each month, I begin with an intention—a quiet compass I carry with me through the month. It’s not a resolution or a checklist, but a reminder of what I’m choosing to root into. This November, my intention is to deepen my relationship with the Most High. To listen more closely. To trust more fully. And most of all, to cultivate the courage to be obedient to the guidance I receive. I’ve noticed a pattern in myself: the guidance often comes clearly. A nudge. A knowing. A quiet instruction. And yet, I stall. I rationalize. I ask for proof. I want certainty that the outcome will match my expectations, that the leap will land exactly where I want it to. But guidance rarely works that way. It’s not a transaction—it’s a trust walk. This month, I’m choosing to follow the guidance. Even when it stretches me. Even when it asks me to leave the comfort of what’s familiar. Even when I don’t know how it will all unfold. I’m ch...

  Affirmation: I honour my balance, my breath, my becoming. I was scrolling through Instagram the other day—half curious, half distracted—when a post by The Q School stopped me in my tracks. It said: “People pleasing is controlling. Micromanaging is controlling. Being a workaholic is controlling. Constant dieting is controlling.” Hmmm. I paused. Let it land. Because society rewards us for all of those things, doesn’t it? For being “nice.” For being thin. For working hard. For being meticulous. We get applause for the very habits that, when out of balance, become cages. And here we are. Anything out of balance will fall down eventually. That’s not judgment—it’s gravity. After sitting with it, I realized why it resonated so deeply. Control, in many forms, is a kind of self-protection. It’s the armor we learned to wear early—some of us before we even had words. Depending on our histories, our cultures, our families, we learned to stay safe by staying in control. And over time, that a...

  Affirmation: “I no longer betray myself for peace. I create peace by being true.” “What do I need today—and am I honoring it?” A question asked with compassion. Received with surprise. And now held with reverence. It came from someone I admire deeply—intelligent, intuitive, and kind. And it landed in me like a seed. Quiet. Potent. Ready. Since that conversation, I’ve been paying attention.  Not just to what I do—but to why I do it. Not just to how I show up—but to whether I feel whole when I do. Because here’s the truth: It’s easy to lose ourselves. To dishonor ourselves. To convince ourselves that it’s nothing. We call it sacrifice. We call it being cool, being liked, keeping the peace. We call it “not a big deal.” But it is. It’s a betrayal of Self. And betrayal, even when done quietly, spills. Into our relationships. Into our work. Into our bodies. Into our joy. I’ve done it. I’ve ignored my needs to be liked. I’ve ignored my needs to avoid conflict. I’ve ignored my needs...

 Affirmation:  I am open to receiving abundance in all its forms—seen and unseen, simple and sacred. I trust that what I need is already on its way. I’ve been sitting with the word “abundance” lately. Not just the Pinterest version with gold fonts and overflowing fruit bowls, but the real, raw, everyday kind. The kind that whispers, nudges, surprises. The kind that shows up even when the bank account is quiet and the contracts are on pause. Abundance, to me, is the flow of energy from the Universal source of life. It’s spiritual and material prosperity. It’s love and wisdom. Talents and virtues. Money and material goods. It’s whatever we need to fulfil our purpose—and it doesn’t always come dressed in dollar signs. I’ve been meditating on how abundance shows up in my life, especially now, in this season of change. And let me tell you, it’s been showing up loud and clear. Not in the ways I used to expect, but in ways that feel even more sacred. A kind word from someone who sees...

Affirmation:    I honor the signs. I release the excuses. I choose truth, even when it’s inconvenient. We heal when we stop avoiding the signs. Not just the ones that whisper discomfort, but the ones that scream danger. Not just the physical aches, but the quiet erosion of self-trust. Healing, for me, is not just about the body. It’s about how I feel about myself when no one is watching. It’s about the choices I make when I want to win more than I want to be well. There are times I’ve wanted to win so badly— to prove I’m worthy, capable, right— that I’ve justified what I knew, deep down, was misaligned. I’ve ignored the nudge. I’ve overridden my intuition. I’ve dressed up excuses as discernment. I’ve even reached for spiritual platitudes to soothe the sting: “All is well.” “I saw a sign.” “I’m on the right path.” But Life, in her infinite grace, doesn’t let me get away with that for long. She loves me too much. She nudges. She whispers. She roars. She gets my attention in any...

Affirmation: I trust myself enough to choose" I believe our souls and spirits are involved in every single choice we make. Even the unconscious ones. Even the ones made in fear. Even the ones we avoid making altogether. Choice is not just a mental exercise. It’s a spiritual transaction. A whisper from the soul. A nudge from the spirit. A portal to creation. Sometimes I make choices knowing they’re not the best ones. I choose silence to avoid conflict. I choose compliance to be liked. I choose delay to dodge discomfort. And still—my soul is present. My spirit is involved. The consequence is never just external. It reverberates through the inner landscape. When I refuse to choose, I am still choosing. And my soul knows it. My spirit feels it. There is no bypassing the sacredness of choice. When we choose in alignment—with our values, our truth, our spirit— there is a peace. Not always ease. But peace. We are always being led to that place. To the choice that honors our wholeness. To...

  Affirmation: Peace is my compass. Integrity is my path. But when does that measurement begin? Is it at the moment of the decision? Or in the process that leads to it? Or in the unfolding that follows? I’ve been walking with this question lately. Especially when I hear someone say, “I made the right decision.” Often, they’re speaking of love. Of choosing a partner. Of finding happiness. But then they add, “The process was messy.” Cheating. Betrayal. Hiding. So I ask: If the union is happy, does it make you a better human being? Is it in alignment? It’s the same with the dream job. You get it. You’re thriving. But the path there was dodgy—manipulation, omission, stepping over someone else’s truth. Is that in alignment? Beyond Judgement, Beyond Ego I’m not asking these questions to judge. I’m asking to understand. To strip away ego and performance. To sit with the soul of the choice. Because alignment, to me, is not just about outcome. It’s about process. It’s about peace. The ...

“You have to know yourself, well enough to trust yourself, well enough to be yourself and know that that’s enough.” — Onami When someone asks, Do you know yourself? what do you say? I’ve noticed that many of us respond with what we are not. “I’m not a morning person.” “I’m not into cars.” “I’m not a people person.” Or we reach for roles: “I’m a mother,” “I’m an accountant,” “I’m a wife.” Sometimes we name our struggles: “I’m anxious,” “I have anxiety,” “I’m messy.” But rarely do we answer from the inside out. Rarely do we say: I am curious. I am tender. I am resilient. I am joy. Why is that? The External Mirror It’s easy to define ourselves by what we do, who we’re with, or what we’ve survived. Careers, relationships, identities—they offer structure. They give us language. But they’re also temporary. If I am only “a wife,” what happens when the marriage ends? If I am “an entrepreneur,” who am when the business folds? I’ve learned that when I tie my sense of Self to something external,...

  Affirmation:   Even in uncertainty, I am rooted in grace. This month, I do not arrive with a plan. I arrive with presence. I do not demand certainty. I offer surrender. The grants have faded. The contracts dissolved. But I remain. Not as a fixed point, but as a living question. What does it mean to serve when the structure shifts? What does it mean to lead when the map disappears? October is not asking me to hustle. It is asking me to listen. To show up without armor. To feel without flinching. To trust that the ground beneath me, though unfamiliar, is still holy. I am not lost. I am being rerouted. I am not broken. I am being reformed. This month, I will not chase clarity. I will cultivate courage. I will not grasp for control. I will practice trust. I will show up. I will feel. I will be. Peace and Blessings ______________________________________________________________ Rooted in Obedience: A Companion Reflection Module: Courage & Belonging Sometimes courage looks like...

Affirmation:  Today, I choose presence over performance, trust over control, love over fear. I am rooted in awareness, and I return to myself with grace.  This week, I’ve been sitting with the ego. Not the kind that struts and boasts, but the quieter one—the negative ego. The one that whispers stories when I’m not paying attention. The one that pulls me out of presence and into performance. I’ve noticed how it shows up: In the need to know everything—before, during, and after. In the distraction that feels like urgency. In the craving for external validation, applause, approval. In the stories I make up to feel safe, seen, superior. When I listen to the negative ego, I act from fear. I compare. I control. I conquer. I want to win—at all costs. And the cost is high. Peace becomes scarce. Confusion becomes familiar. Connection becomes conditional. This week, my practice has been self-awareness. Noticing when I slip into fear. Noticing when I speak out of turn. Noticing when I ju...

  Reflections on the Nina Documentary Launch – Sunday 21st September 2025 Affirmation:  Obedience births alignment. Trust the nudge. There was no budget. Let me start there. No grand sponsor, no overflowing account. Just a deep knowing: this must happen. The launch of the Architects of Change documentary was more than an event—it was a calling. A whisper from the Most High that said, share these stories. And so, I listened. I wrote to a few corporate companies. Some responded, some didn’t. I wasn’t discouraged. I was determined. And then, on a quiet Saturday morning walk along the beach—my usual rhythm—her name came to me: Tisha Jack, founder of TCJ Events. Now, I hadn’t spoken to Tisha in years. A brief hello two years ago, nothing more. But the nudge was clear: Call her. So I did. She gave me a quote—beautiful, but beyond what we could pull together. I was honest. She was gracious. Her words: “Have no fear. We will make it happen.” And happen it did. The venue was transforme...

Affirmation: I show up with intention. I stand on my values. I honor myself and others in every exchange.  Lately I have been practicing to  ask myself: What is my intention? Not just in the big, sweeping gestures—but in the quiet moments, the conversations, the choices made when no one is watching. To me, intention is not a vague hope or a distant goal. It’s a living compass. It asks: • What am I hoping to achieve? • What am I hoping to share with those around me? When I move with intention, I move with clarity. I am less likely to be swayed by the need to please or perform. I am more likely to stand rooted in truth. Living My Values My values are what I stand on. They are the quiet truths I carry whether the world is watching or not. • I value kindness—not as niceness, but as a radical act of care. • I value mutual respect—where dignity is not earned, but honored. • I value authenticity—even when it’s uncomfortable, even when it’s not liked. These values are not ju...