Reality is right here

There is no need to be restless or anxious, concerned about whether I will make it or when I will make it. I will. That is all I need to know. It is accomplished already, and I can travel this illusory journey in peace knowing that in reality it is already over.ACIM

I remember exactly when I stopped being anxious and restless.
For months and months I had a pain on the side of my neck, it would not go away, nothing I did made it stop. I was obsessed with making it, I was preoccupied with what was coming next, what I had to do, all the mistakes that I made, all the debts I had to repay, the bad decisions I believed I made
A woman told me " Madam Akosua you are here, be here" I did not fully grasp it then. One evening in Kampala I started to meditate, it was my first time to go within and I literally wept. The tears just kept flowing, it was tears of joy,  because while I was in the state of silence, I just felt so grateful to be in the moment, right there. It was such an overwhelming feeling of calm and gratitude. To be there, with these awesome women, why was I  always rushing  to be somewhere else, to do something else, to want something else? Is there something somewhere else more important than where I was at the present moment?
The simple answer was plain ole no! The magic was right there where I was in the present moment
And therein the moment came where anxiety and restlessness disappeared from my approach, my neck pain was gone, just like that
Over the past few weeks it has reappeared, the anxiety and restlessness, it manifested itself in the same dull ache, this time in my lower back.
Why wasn't I...... fill in the blanks
How can I........... fill in the blanks
Where can I....... fill in the blanks
And like clockwork, as I was doing my early morning reading, the paragraph quoted above from ACIM came up, I screamed! literally! OMG yes! stop it, just stop it right now
plant seeds, tend to them and reaping time soon come. Be here now, pay attention, do the work, make the choices. Be still and KNOW
Peace 


Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

30 Things I Believe

Image
What is being of service? Looking upon another human being with kindness and compassion and not judgement is a profound act of service and though such a form of service lacks for whistles and bells, this expression of “service” comes from truly understanding the power of your soul and what it means to “look upon another with eyes of grace.” Carolyn Myss 1. I believe in sleep 2. I believe that love can cure it all  3. I believe in feeling my feelings 4. I believe that nature is my best teacher 5. I believe that friends are family minus blood lines 6. I believe that discipline and consistency combined with talent  can and will can create miracles 7. I believe in following my intuition 8. I believe that rest is part of the Journey 9. I believe in that all things are lessons that God will have us learn 10. I believe in choosing the people around you with care 11. I believe that vacations can reboot creativity  12. I believe in joy - doing what brings you joy -...
Read more

Redefinition of Lose

Rather than think about what you have to do to change a situation, consider what the situation might be doing to change you. How it might be seasoning and transforming and growing you. You are not responsible for everything and everyone. Allow that as a possibility. Jessica Dore There are some situations that are simply in your life showing you how to shift, how to be flexible, to grow, to transform. You long for change, yet you cling so to the familiar. You are so afraid of what you think you will lose. You are even afraid to lose the things you don't want. The familiar becomes your family, regardless of what it is. let's redefine "lose" I define lose as opening up to a new possibility The day I stopped saying that I lost my house, lost my marriage, lost my mind, things shifted for me The shift has to start inside How we define and relate to the circumstances in our lives transforms how we act. I started asking myself different question...
Read more

What Does Support Look Like to You?

Image
  You save yourself energy when you learn to ask people what they need, instead of assuming you know best then acting on your own impulses. Allowing people to define what support looks like gives you an ability to assess if you have the capacity to show up - Minaa B If someone asks you right now, what does support look like to you, what would be your answer? It takes self reflection , self awareness and more importantly a whole load of authenticity to answer. On the flip side, do you rush to support others without them even asking- there may be times when that is required, however many a time we assume that we know what others want and need. The times when we do assume, after a while a feeling of resentment builds because "how could they be so ungrateful?" or "why are they not seeing their need for my help?" the other classic is "they must need my help to show them because they clearly are not seeing that they need support" We continue to assume what othe...
Read more